| | Current Location: | Work :0 | | Subject: | Change | | Time: | 02:10 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/opiummmm/foxies/happy.gif) optimistic |
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| I know it's been a long time since a lot of you have heard from me. Things have been rather crazy and busy is all. But I'm good and so is elijah and pelty. I wanted to announce that this will be my last entry under this livejournal name. Over time I've found more and more that furrious just wasn't fitting me and it was time for a change. I know a lot of people know I've changed to a wolf. There are many reasons behind this. Ask if you really wanna know. But it boils down to that I've made a lot of positive changes in my life lately, and believe I am stronger because of it. I'm not that scared subby insecure little fox anymore and I think its all for the best.
My new journal name is tagwolf
It says its bad but its really not. weird
I hope to keep you all up to date. Thanks! | comments: 7 comments or Leave a comment   |
| Hey. My really nice apartment fell through cause my credit sucks. My income is great but I guess this place looked more at history than present. I do however have perfect rental history...anyways.
My and elijah are looking for someone in the bay area (preferably santa clara, sunnyvale, mountain view, campbell, san jose area because I work by the doubletree) who either:
a) Has a house and is looking to add a very close couple into one bedroom
or
b) Is looking to get a house with us and has established income / good credit
Furry fandom probably isn't the best place to look huh ;)
We are looking to pay about 600 - 1200 /month between the two (me and elijah) of us but thats negotiable. I know it's a long shot but. Lemme know. | | comments: 19 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Reno 911 Miami was good :). Pretty funny and quite a few of my favoite people in the cast. Might be biased because we went stoned but *shrugs* | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Subject: | *wags* | | Time: | 01:22 am | | Current Mood: | content |
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| | Sorry for keeping to myself lately. Elijah made it here safe. I'm a very happy fox. More to come... | | comments: 5 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Subject: | Happy Fox | | Time: | 04:16 pm | | Current Mood: | excited |
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| Ok so wow. Update time.
Still in San Jose. I miss the yote a lot. Been hanging out.
I landed the job of my life though. It's sys admin for a up and coming VOIP company. It's very lucrative for someone my age and it brings me very close to reaching my goal of breaking 100k by age 30. I start next week and I'm going to be working my butt off for a bit getting settled. Pelt and I are very close to getting housing secured in the area and once thats done I can start getting our things, and most importantly my yote up here. :)
Also Keman arrives Monday and I'm fucking excited. KTHX
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| | Subject: | Adjusting | | Time: | 10:13 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/opiummmm/foxies/scared.gif) anxious |
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| Finally starting to adjust slowly to being back in the Bay. Would be a fuckload easier if my mate was here but luckily I have enough things to keep me busy that I don't have to focus on the fact that he's not in my arms.
In other news I've had a couple interviews in my first week here and I think I am doing pretty well in my job hunt. In addition my last employer loved me enough that they are going to pay me to work remotely on projects. This is nice because it gives me some income for now, not a ton (600/week), especially for the bay area, but its something until I land my dream IT job right.
Most people have been really cool and welcoming so far. I have met a couple new people and gonna hang out with a few more in the near future. Also Keman is moving up which I'm totally excited about. I've also felt less "out of place" with certain people, its tough at first cause that "comfort level" isn't always there in some of my interactions. Pelt has made that much easier since he's such an awesome wolf but, ttill adjusting and all that shit, blah blah blah. I think a lot of it has to do with elijah not being around. He's still holding down the fort in Vegas til I can get this move in order. I love you baby and I appreciate all you do for us.
That's all for now. I'm alive and well and working on whats best for my life and elijahs in the long term.
Love you all. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Subject: | Update | | Time: | 06:13 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/opiummmm/foxies/sad.gif) lonely |
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| Made it to San Jose ok. Interview went well. I miss my yote. If you see him around, make sure he feels loved. I can only do so much from here with searching for work and housing.
God I miss him.
i love you elijah. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Subject: | whoa | | Time: | 03:25 am |
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| Thank you all for your previous input on my last post. I did make a decision and it was based on factors that wern't previously considered. I'm moving to the Bay Area this Sunday to secure income and housing with pelt. My current job has let me go on a leave of absence because I guess they really appreciated the work I did there. They did this on almost no notice so. I loved my job there and will miss it.
I was also miss Elijah and Jaeger for a few weeks. They unfortunately can't move up until we get things settled up there.
As for why this decision was made so quickly:
I already have a couple things lined up for interviews etc in San Jose.
My work said I can come back if all else fails.
We would end up not being able to afford the share of the place in Vegas and San Jose long term causing us all to struggle paying off bills, and perhaps even preventing our move altogether.
I hate Las Vegas :P
I'm going to bust ass looking for work and I know I will find something, at which point we can move the rest of our shit.
I talked to our property manager and he is confident we can find someone to sublet our lease...In the worse case we lose our deposit which in the grand scheme of things is not worth struggling unhappy for in Vegas for who knows how long.
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So thats about it. I've already had some people support me and others tell me I'm a fucking idiot but regardless, it's my decision and I'm doing it with the best interests of everyone involved. | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| Wow...interesting con this year. Great seeing all of you. But this post isn't about the con so much. It's about a decision I have to make that I need as much input as possible on.
Pelt, if you know him, is a very special wolf I've lived with for a while now. Someone I care deeply for and love. Elijah, Pelt, and I went up to San Jose for FC and to visit with some friends. It brought back some really good memories for me because I remembered how much I loved it there and how much more it felt like home. I really fucking hate Las Vegas. I mean the cost of living is great, the area is wonderful and you can get anything you want 24/7. But people here are fake, miserable. I guess I've always been one of them.
Anyways while we were there Pelt got his old job back. And they gave him a decent pay increase over what he was making. I don't blame him for taking the offer, but I do wish it wouldn't have happened so suddenly. I was planning on moving us up there anyways in a couple months as a group.
So Pelt leaves Vegas Sunday to go back to San Jose. And I'm faced with a huge decision on what to do.
Heres my options:
I can go with Pelt when he leaves. This has some pros and cons, like anything.
PROS: I'll be in a place that for the first time in a while I felt happy in. I'll be extremely motivated to find a job ASAP to get Elijah moved up and get things taken care of. I'll have better career opportunities in my field. I'll have a chance to secure housing with Pelt. I'll be around close friends that I love.
CONS: I'll be walking away from a job that I love, but a place that I hate. My job looks very good on a resume (IT Director), but I'm scared of fucking up it as a reference by leaving suddenly. I wouldn't see elijah anywhere near as often until housing and employment are secured. I lose my income source and may have to struggle with things for a short period of time.
OR -other option-
I can stay here in Vegas for a bit, getting my resume together and budgeting, figuring out and planning things, tying up loose ends and possibly getting an interview I can travel up to.
PROS: I keep my source of stable income and have the potential to save up. I stay close to elijah and keep him happy. I have the potential on getting interviews and coming out to San Jose for them while still retaining my current employment and hopefully a good reference. I can search for someone to sublet the lease in Vegas easier so we can safely bail when it comes time to move, either that or give notice and lose our deposit possibly.
CONS: It may take me considerably more time to make it to Cali where I really was happy. I will miss pelt, and many many others. I won't be around to help Pelt find a place. The difference between leaving now and leaving in a month or two may not make a difference on my resume anyways. It'll be a lot harder to goto interviews because they will be 550 miles away. I'll have a ton of stress and sadness to deal with in the time between when pelt leaves and when I'd get there.
I'm not sure what to do. I've got a lot to think about and 3 days to decide.....
Each of these choices has risks and consequences. And the problem is one still doesn't seem better to me. I either burn my bridge or possible not cross it for a long time.....and I hate the side of the river I'm on. | | comments: 8 comments or Leave a comment |
| | In San Jose safe and sound with the elijahyote. Staying with Orin and Sprague doggie for the time being (thank you guys so much). Having a good time so far, good to see old friends and new ones. More to come when I'm not exhausted from driving 8 hours today. | | comments: 5 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Subject: | Holidays | | Time: | 04:50 pm | | Current Mood: | high |
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| Merry Christmas everyone.
It's been busy! Lots of shopping and stuff lately. Had some really cool visitors lately. Panth dude you we're so much fun being out here. Hope you had a great time with us and come back soon. The snow kicked ass ;).
And big suprise was Decca coming out to see us last night. I hope you have more layovers here pup. Although hopefully under different circumstances. I'll see ya in Jan and come back soon.
Other than that just spending lots of time with the yote, pelt, and jaeger. I think we got a great family here and really, thats all you can ask for on Christmas right?
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| | Subject: | Bday! | | Time: | 02:02 am | | Current Mood: | thankful |
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| Happy Birthday Pelt!
A very special happy birthday to the best wolf in the world. You have always been there when I needed you most. We love you Pelt
*kisses and hugs*
Tomorrow you get B-Day spankings ;) | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Subject: | OWWW | | Time: | 11:53 am | | Current Mood: | sick |
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| OWWW I know it's been a while since I've updated. I am very happy having eli_yote back in my life again. Things are going very well for both of us and we seem to be returning to that happy place we both missed so much. Thank you everyone for all your well wishes.
So I went to the urgent quick care medical center a week ago when galen was visiting us. Originally I had extreme pain in my left arm. It was an odd sensation. Like burning, over sensitive. The doctor assumed I had a nerve bundle sending weird signals back to my brain from a muscle injury. So he prescribed me Tramadol (Pain Killer), Skelaxin (Muscle Relaxant), Premisome (I know I spelled it wrong but its a steroid), and Motrin 800 (Anti Inflamitory)
Well after a few days I noticed what I thought to be hives on my arm. I played it to being an allergic reaction from the meds but upon going back into UMC, they told me they were not hives and that I was misdiagnosed.
I developed shingles on the left side of my body. Remember when you got chicken pox as a kid...Well apparently that virus never goes away. It stays hidden in your nerves. In some people it decides one day to reactivate and let me tell you something...it's about 50x worse the second time around. The virus direct attacks your nerve bundles and than errupts through the skin. This is extremely painful. And I have a very high pain tolerance but omfg. It feels like someone is constantly stabbing me in the arm all over AND my arm is covered in fireants.
So they gave me anti viral stuff and 60 tablets of lortab extra strenght. So I'm basically trying to stay rested and keeping my painkiller buzz on as much as I can. They help somewhat.
Statistically I should be better in 7 - 10 days but some estimates have shown 3 - 5 weeks without treatment. I also have to avoid people who've never had chicken pox for the next week because I can give it to them. Fun.
Once I heal up though usually people never have an issue again. Although some have lasting nerve damage and pain for month or years afterwards. More fun!
So we will see what happens and luckly elijah and several of my friends have had this before so they can relate and provide support.
I'm hangin in there and I love ya'll
Please ignore the spelling errors. I'm kinda loopy :P
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| Some of you may already know this. And I know it may be met with both opposition and congratulations.
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) eli_yote and I have moved past our problems and come to realize a lot of things. We are mates again. This came after a LOT of discussion and talking but we both know things are going to be really good and that this time apart was necessary...albeit extremely tough and depressing at times. I know people have gotten hurt because of this and to them I can only offer two things...my deepest apologizes and my greatest thanks. You have helped both of us grow so much. But we know that to be happy...truly happy. We need to be with each other, and only each other. If we have learned anything its that that is all we really need to be truly happy. Our love is real and true.
To those that this may hurt...like I said. I am truly sorry. But if you really care for Elijah or I...you'll be happy for us and know that because our love survived 5 months of being apart and 1200 miles...it can survive any problems that arise in the future.
I love you Elijah, and I will see you soon. | | comments: 10 comments or Leave a comment |
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